June 26

Today was not a good day for me. My anxiety was so high and I was feeling depressed. I do not get down too often, but today I did. It was not good. The heat brought it on and I know that. I was so stressed about the animals. I know I’m not in control of the weather and I prayed and prayed. I knew I had to trust God since he was the one in control. 

It was 108 degrees today with no breeze at all. Y’all, that’s hot. I mean can smell the rubber on your shoes melting hot. Nothing about it was comfortable. The animals were miserable and it was obvious. If I could bring them all in the house, I would. My house is not big enough for that. 

Ernestine is still living in the bush in front of the house. She is such a mess. I wish I could do something for her. She refuses to be caught. 

The chickens in the coop are doing well. They probably have the best spot on the property with a breeze going through there and the sun doesn’t hit them. 

The donkeys and goats are doing okay. They are hot and cranky, but so was I understand. I don’t worry about the donkeys as much as I do the other animals. 

The other animals are hot, too, but so far so good. I’ve been such a nervous wreck about the heat for them. 

Takua was such a sweet horse. I know he is miserable but he wanted to be close to me. He might have been saying thank you for spraying them all down. They do appreciate that. 

The cows have been using the fan we put up over the weekend, so Alex seems to be feeling better. 

We saw our first deer on the property today. It was a doe and the poor thing looked miserable with the heat. 

Mattie got some loving. He is such a mess. I cannot even tell you how much of a mess. He sure is loved though. 

Tinkerbelle is doing better and better. Ronnie brought home mineral blocks and she is still on antibiotics, but she is better. 

One of the prettiest chicks we have now I have decided to name Esmeralda. She is gorgeous. I can’t wait to see what she looks when she grows up. 

Ursula knew I was not feeling myself. She grabbed a hold of my pants and socks and did not want to let me go. She is so sweet. I sure do love her. 

We had a chance of rain so I went out to take pictures of the clouds. They were everywhere. It also looked like dust storms coming in. 

I looked over and saw Treat and Pedro interacting through the fence. It was so cute. 

I went to check on the pigs. I had a panic moment once I got down there. Treat had something hanging from her body. I went into the pen and it turned out to be a stick and I got it off her. Then I noticed Treat. She had a head tilt. My heart just sank. I had no idea what was going on but I was upset. She seemed fine otherwise so Ronnie and I were going to watch her. 

I was so depressed after finding the pig like that. Ronnie went to check on her several times that night and her head tilt was gone. I just got in my own head and couldn’t get out of it. 

Ursula knew and let me hold her little paw for a bit. This girl is precious. 

Word of the day is depression. Deuteronomy 31:8